wordage

I work at a country club fitness center. I answered the phone today as I usually do, "Squire Creek Fitness Center, this is Cayce" and the guy on the other end said, "Yeah, I was just wondering what I have to do to work out there". I said, well, "are you a member"? He said, no, do you have to be a member to work out there? I said, "Well, as far as I know you have to be a member to work out here, but let me transfer you to the main office so they can confirm that". Later on, I called Betsy, the main receptionist, and I said so, can people who aren't members work out over here? She said, oh, He wanted a job. He was asking what he had to do to get a job out here (to work out here). I laughed about this for a while and kind of felt stupid, but I guess that's why it is important to have a strong vocabulary and to use proper grammar.

truly happy

Have you ever cried for joy? If you are like me then You probably haven't. Tonight was my first time. I cry all the time when I laugh too hard and I suppose that's similar but this was crying and a little chuckle to follow. I came home to pineville this weekend and I was talking to my mom about Christian authors and books and how I can't stand to read but a few. I read mother theresas biography once and I just can't handle reading about these jerk offs who drive Mercedes and Lexus and live in 300000 dollar houses. I know God blesses people and that's great. I hope to have all that and more one day. When it comes to missions and serving God and doing His will, I can't help but think some priorities need to be switched. But after all who am I to judge?

Well as I was talking to my mom she was telling me the story of George Mūller who was a man of faith. I know, I was like oh great, but it gets good. George Mūller and his wife were ministers in England and they never took a salary, they depended wholly on God to provide for them. They start an orphanage and one day, as many, they were out of food. Mr. Muller had all the children sit at the table for breakfast ad usual though and they prayed because they knew God would provide. Well, there was a knock on the door and it was the local baker. He said, i don't know why but God woke me up at 2 am and told me that you had no food, so I've been baking bread since 2 am for you and the children in your orphanage. This is where I began to tear up by the way. If you don't have moist eyes you are ill. Not really, but maybe. Well, they had bread and just as they were about to eat, a milk man knocks on the door and says, my truck broke down right in front of your orphanage, will you please take my milk? It will go bad of you don't. Now I have tears running down my face. I didn't want my mom to see so I scratched my eye like it was hurting or something. But to be honest, that is the most amazing story I have heard in a while. It just made me so happy to know that God provides for those who love and trust in Him. That's my story. Have you ever cried because you were overjoyed?

standing on the edge of the world, peering over in to the great unknown. the sun begins to rise from the other side and my heart skips a beat. i grab your hand as my eyes begin to close. i'm blinded by the wonder of the light. we count to three and we jump into the unknown. the rush of air over my face refreshes my soul. the warmth of your hand in mine. our pulses are matched as the light shines ever so bright. the beating of my heart changes as the darkness departs. the existence of grace is made known as i take this leap of faith.

sunburn

This weekend was amazing. I normally don't stay in Ruston for the weekends because there is not really anything that goes on, but this weekend I had to stay because the church had First Friday and I had to work...well, I say work, but I had to hang out with a bunch of kids and go bowling...it was alot of fun. Saturday, I woke up and thought about driving home to Pineville, but I decided that I didn't feel like spending the money on gas and so I just did some dishes and watched Jersey Shore all day. I woke up around 9am and started watching Jersey Shore and then I watched it until probably 5 that afternoon. It was just nice to have absolutely nothing to do. I know, I am lazy. Well, then I went to Chili's and ate with a friend and we were going to go see a movie but we were both too tired, so I went home and watched more Jersey Shore, in case you're wondering, Netflix has season 1 and season 2 on streaming. Anyways, after a little more Jersey Shore I went to a friends house to hang out and then I went to bed. Sunday was very similar. I woke up and went to church, ate lunch with my brother and his wife and my niece and my sister in laws parents. We ate Mexican and it was so good, it's been a while since I have had some good Mexican food. After lunch I went swimming with my friend Maggie and I forgot to put sunscreen on...needless to say, I got burned pretty badly. After swimming I went to night church and then my friend Meghan and I went to play tennis. Then, I went ate a chicken pot pie, watched some more Jersey Shore and went to sleep. Now, I am sitting at work, typing this, trying to stay awake. That is my weekend in a nutshell. Hope all of you had a great weekend also! Until I write again, keep it real, readers. Stay classy bloggers (that was for you Christina, haha!).

K-LOVE - Brandon Heath "Your Love" LIVE

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I really need to start eating better. I have eaten BBQ and pizza for the past two days, and that is pretty much all. I ate BBQ right before bed last night and I didn't have any trouble sleeping, but when I woke up this morning my stomach was hurting, but then I got hungry so I ate some left over pizza for breakfast. Now, my chest hurts too, and I really am hoping it is just because of indigestion. I also need to get more sleep. I stayed up watching The Legend of the Guardians last night, which by the way is the best movie that I have seen in a while. It was clean, the animation was great, and it was an overall good story line. I like most kid movies though, so if you don't like kids movies then you will probably think it is dumb. Anyways, I stayed up way too late watching that movie, which I am glad I did, but I was typing this post and I guess I fell asleep because I woke up and had deleted everything that I had just typed. Anyways, that's all I have to say for now. But, I hope that everyone is doing well. Have a great week, stay cool (figuratively and literally), and I'll write again soon.

umm

i have a lot that i could write about, but i just don't feel like writing about it right now. hope all is going well for you all. keep it real. be good. buckle up. dont drink and drive. stay classy. you catch my drift...

gratitude

I've been thinking alot lately, well not alot, but on my way to work this morning I was thinking that I should really be more thankful. I complain alot. Now that I think about it, I complain the majority of the day, most days. I say things like, "I just want to go home", "I am so tired", "I wish I didn't have to go to work today", and other things like that and many others. The truth is, these things that I say are mainly just statements, yet they are statements that don't show that I am thankful. Honestly, I should be thankful that I got some sleep last night. I should be thankful that I have a job, especially after watching the news yesterday and there are thousands of jobless Americans just from this past month. I know that things don't always go my way and I know that the grass usually does look greener on the other side but I am going to try and be content with what I have for the time being. Truth is, God has blessed me alot, and I take that for granted. I don't know why, but for some reason I am here where I am right now, and I should be thankful that. I should be thankful that I have have another day that I am alive, healthy, and employed. I am also thankful for my family. What are you thankful for?

The Road Not Taken, by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood.
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood.
And looked down one as far as I could.
To where it bent in the undergrowth,
Then too the other, as just as fair.
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really abou tthe same,
and botht that morning equally lay
in the leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence;
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

it feels like the first time...

For a long time I have felt like I don't belong anywhere. I know this sounds cliche or whatever, but I guess since I have graduated I have just felt awkward and out of place. Lately, I have been really trying to focus on myself and focus on my relationship with Christ. I don't know what I want to do with my life, or what God wants me to do with my life...so I suppose I am staying here until I figure it out. I have been working at Squire Creek Country Club for over a year now, and it has been wearing on me. I just sit there for hours upon hours and it gets very old, but I am thankful for the job and the money that comes along with this boring routine. Last Saturday I started working at Dowlings Smokehouse BBQ. I decided that the extra money would be nice and it would give me somethign to do, as well as give me something different. I really enjoy working there so far. I have only worked two days, but I like the people that I work with and I am learning new things. For the first time in a long time I feel like I am where I need to be. I know I don't want to stay in Ruston for forever, and I know that I don't want to be working two jobs for the rest of my life either. I started going to Sunday School and getting involved with the singles class at church though, and it feels good to have a sense of belonging. I guess God has helped me get a fresh start and work through things that I have needed to work through. I feel like I am in the right place, or at least doing something right, for the first time in a long time.
Keep it classy bloggers.

tweet

if you didn't know, i'm back on twitter. it's been a while since i was on there last and now i am kind of addicted. at the moment i have 4 different social networking tabs open...is that bad? anyways, follow me on twitter at "cayce_murphy". have a great day. stay classy fellow bloggers.

changes

a friend of mine just posted on her facebook saying that basically someone told her once "friends can be like ticks" meaning they can drain the life from you. good friends should lift you up, encourage you, strengthen you, and keep you where you are suppose to be spiritually. she said that if she didnt answer texts or calls, not to take it personally, but it is because she has to get her life straight with Christ. this hit me kind of hard. I didn't think anything of it. In fact, I have been trying to do the same thing for the past few months. I have no been hanging out with certain people because I feel like they do not provide the support that I need. I feel like when I hang out with them, I cuss more, I laugh at things that I shouldn't...I guess they bring the bad side of me out. I tried to get involved with church, and I tried to get them to go do things with me that would be upliftin and encouraging. I tried to be accountable with them, and such but I don;t think that they wanted it. I tried many times, and yet I kept hanging out with them...being pulled down until I felt myself fall farther than I felt like I ever had. I decided it was enough, and I had to do something. I had to make myself better. When I hung out with them constantly, I did not notice it, because I was acting the same way. I believe it all started when I gave up secular music for lent. My mind was on Christ, of course I couldn't help hearing secular music in movies and in stores and restaurants, but when I had a choice, when I was in my car, I listened to only Christian music for the entire 40 days. Even now I still have all my presets set on the Christian stations, and I try to only listen to Christian music in my car. The point I am trying to make is that, when I was focusing on Jesus, I saw things more clearly. I saw how my friends were living, doing whatever they thought was funny or cool. Drinking heavily and often, cussing, watching movies that no one is ever mature enough to watch, and I realized that I was no better than them. I do not think I am really judging them, because I am guilty of the same thing. I just know that I have to separate myself from that way of life. When my friend said that she wasnt going to text or answer calls, I texted her. Now, she takes a while to text back most of the time. I texted her though and she still has not replied yet...this was probably fifteen minutes ago. This is not unusual for her to take so long in replying, but it made me wonder, what if she doesnt text me back?. It made me wonder if I was bringing people down. I know that I joke innapropriately every now and then, I know I watch movies that I shouldnt, I know that a cuss word may slip occasionally. I don't want to be a bad influence on people. That is the whole reason I have separated myself from some of my friends. I guess I am writing this, hoping that you are reading this. I want you to know that I am trying, that I hope I am not a bad influence, and although I don't feel like I am a bad influence, I wanted to thank you for making me double check myself. I know that I have faults, and that I slip up alot, but I am working on it. Please keep me in your prayers and don't give up on me yet.

victory

As you have probably heard by now Osama bin Laden has been killed and buried in a watery grave, in the ocean. I was overjoyed when I heard this last night, as I was getting ready for bed. For pretty much ten years now our troops have been overseas trying to find a him and make him pay for his wrongs. When I got on facebook though, I expected more people's statuses to be rejoicing in the fact that bin Laden is dead and can no longer threaten our country or any other country. I was surprised though because many of my friends posted things like, "I now officially hate America", and "Osama bin Laden, love the enemy". There are many others, but those are the two that especially bothered me. I actually unfriended one guy who had a picture of an Arab person as his profile picture now, I think the guy is Arab, but I saw the picture and immediately deleted him, because I think that it is disrespectul. The fact of the matter is that he, bin Laden, was a terrorist. He killed thousands upon thousands of innocent Americans, as well as thousands of other innocent people from around the world. I know that God loves everyone, and does not want anyone to go to Hell, but I also believe that bin Laden was simply an evil man. He deliberately set up terrorist activities in order to try and destroy our country along with others. For all these people who are saying things like they feel sorry for him or that we should love our enemies, I guess I see where you are coming from because I know we are suppose to love our enemies, and I know that Jesus died for every person on this earth, good and bad. There are in fact some people who just deserve to die though, and I believe bin Laden was one of those people. If you look at the old testament, the Israelites were always at war with someone, and most of the time, God told them to go to war, because they had been attacked or there was a threat that would be lurking in the shadows if they did not destroy their enemies. I don't know, maybe I am just overly patriotic or somethings, but I believe our troops did the right thing and I am thankful that our troops protect us from our enemies. I am glad that we have one less enemy to worry about now. Let me know what you think.

Your Love Is Strong

I went home to Pineville this past weekend and stayed with my parents, and got to see some of my best friends. My parent's church had their D-Now this past weekend also, so they had the Michael Reed Band come and play for the weekend, which is funny because they are the band that plays at the Tech BCM. I heard them play this song a while back, but they played it Sunday too, and I had to find it. I tried to upload the video on here, but I couldn't figure out how to do it. Anyways, the song is called "Your Love Is Strong" by Jon Foreman, from Switchfoot. This song is basically The Lord's Prayer in song version, it is amazing. I posted it on my facebook wall, so go check it out. Yesterday was one of those days that I was just ready for it to be over, but it got better with time. I went over to my brother and sister in law's house and hung out with them and my niece and ate some yummy spaghetti. Everyday I feel more like I need a change. I like my job, I like where I live, I love being so close to my family...but there is just something that I feel like I need to do, somewhere I need to go, and I can't figure out what it is for the life of me. This song though calms me. God's Love is strong. No matter what I am going through, He is there for me, always taking care of me. Some of the lyrics that stick out to me the most are , "why do I worry, so why do I freak out? God knows what I need, You know what I need" and then "two things You told me, You are strong and that you love me". That is enough...why do I worry? God is taking care of me. He's got the whole world in His hands.

surprise hurricane

Yesterday was a really good day. I went to work and did some weights and ate a good sandwhich for lunch. When I got off work at two o'clock I was worn out for some reason though, I was just extremely tired, so I parked my car and left my sunroof open because it was nice outside and I was planning to go run at the track and then run some errands while I was out. Well, I sit down to watch tv for a little bit and to take a quick nap...turns out that my nap was not so quick and it started to rain. I was thinking, this is great because I sleep really well in rainy weather. I was disappointed that I was not able to run, but I decided that I needed the sleep more, so I just laid there and fell back asleep. Somewhere around six o'clock someone rings my door bell, so I answer the door and it's my neighbor. My neighbors are really nice, they bring my roommate and I cookies every now and then and we will just talk and stuff. Well, all the said is "Cayce, your sunroof is open...and it has been raining for the past couple of hours". Deeply worried I ran outside and closed the sunroof and surprisingly, only the back of my seat and right behind my seat was wet. I need to clean out my car, so the only stuff that really got wet other than the back of my seat is trash. I know it's terrible to have stuff piled up on the back seat of my car...but sometimes I pretty much live out of my car, so even though it's a lame excuse--it's all I've got. Anyways, nothing is ruined so I am thankful. That was my adventure for the week. I hope y'alls week has been exciting also!

what to do

I feel like college was where I was suppose to figure out what I want to do with my life...but thus far I do not have any idea of what I want to do. I always see jobs that I think wouldbe fun, especially in movies and stuff, but I'm just not sure if I want to move away for forever. My niece who is not quite two has started calling me by name...which actually sounds more like "kakhi" than "Cayce" but, it is funny and she knows that that is me! She smiles and runs up to me when she sees me and I just don't want to give that up for some job. I really enjoy my job that I have now...I mean, it's pretty laid back and I get to pump some iron, and watch tv...who doesn't want a job like that? I don't know really...I just don't have any direction I guess. I think the main thing is I don't want to be stuck inside an office from dawn to dusk. My schedule now is from 5:30 am until 2:00 pm and although I started this shift with a grudge, I have grown to really enjoy it. The weather has been wonderful the past week, so when I get off work I might take a short nap and then go run and just enjoy being outside. Well, I think I have rambled on enough...if y'all have any suggestions of fun jobs let meknow!

Valtentine's Day

Today is Valentine's Day. Today is a day that people who are in relationships, whether through marriage or casually dating, tend to love. It is also a day that people who are not in relationships tend to hate. I have always liked Valentine's Day and do not ever remember calling it Single's Awareness Day as many of my friends do. I don't know why I have always liked Valentine's Day, after all this is my 23rd Valentine's Day that I have been single for, but I still enjoy this unofficial holiday, I still get excited and nervous and everything just like I did when I was a kid in elementary school. I will probably end up renting the movie Valentine's Day and watching it because for some reason that is one of my favorite movies.
Maybe the reason I like Valentine's Day so much is what it stands for. Looking back at history, I know where the holiday originated and all, but when you really think about it Saint Valentinus was a hero. He was a martyr for love. For true love. Something about the story of Saint Valentinus and Valentine's Day just makes sense to me. Even though I have been single for 23 years of my life, I believe in love. I know that I will find true love one day and I know that this probably sounds really sappy and maybe even just dumb, but I know that there is a girl out there for me. There is a girl out there who is perfect for me. I believe that my one true love is out there. Who knows, maybe she is in the same boat that I am in, maybe her heart has been broken as many times as mine has.
Today though whether you are single, dating, or married do not focus on the past. Don't focus on your hurts and heartbreaks, focus on today. Even if you do not have a significant other to love, love your family and your friends. Jesus said, "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." John 13:34-35. We are commanded to love. So, today do not be SAD, but love.
Happy Valentine's Day!

Sleep Deprived

This morning I am worn out. I have been opening up at work at 5:30 every morning for the past few weeks, and it's not bad because I get off earlier in the afternoon, but it wears me out. Last night I was in bed at 10:15, which is really good for me because I usually stay up and watch tv or netflix. Right before I get in bed though my Momma calls and says that she and my Dad are on the way to Longview to see my sister, who is in the hospital for chest pains. Well, I get in bed and am praying for my sister because I have no idea what is going on. I am just falling asleep and one of my friends texts me to come hang out with them. He knows that I have to work early in the morning but for some reason, every night they text me and want me to come hang out and then they get mad at me because I "never" hang out with them anymore. Truth is they always wait until so late to do anything---ten o'clock used to not be late, but I guess I am getting old. Anyways, getting back on track, that text message brought me out of my slight slumber and I could not go to sleep for anything, so I check facebook and notice that my best friend back home has posted on facebook that she is confused about something, so I text her and she calls me and so we talk for a good while. She has to wake up at 4:30 every morning also, because she teaches elementary school and has to drive 45 minutes and she said that she is going through the same thing about people being upset that she goes to bed early. It was so good to hear that I am not the only one. After we hung up I still could not sleep, so I watched tv for a while until I finally started to drift off. Right as I was starting to fall asleep, my Momma called and said that my sister was at home now and that she was doing fine. She has some galstones, so she is in pain, but the Dr. said she is ok. I was so glad to hear that, and right after I got off the phone with my Momma I fell asleep. I guess my mind was put at ease. It was now one o'clock a.m., but everything was going to be ok. My alarm set for 4:30 went off way too early, but I got ready for work, scraped the ice off of my windshield and came out to work. Now I am sitting here, at work, writing...thinking about taking a nap. It is Friday though, so I have the whole weekend to sleep...and I think I am going to get an iPhone today! The sky is clear this morning, so I am about to go watch the sunrise. It's the dawn of a new day.

snow, hopefully

Today is quite cold, at 27 degrees. It is not suppose to get over 34 today and tonight we are suppose to have snow/rain/sleet, otherwise known as a "wintry mix" which could possibly and most likely continue into tomorrow as well. I personally would be perfectly fine with the "wintry mix" staying as long as it wants to. I do not have to work this weekend, so I do not have to worry about getting out in it. The only time I would have to get out in it is tomorrow morning for work, but if it has already started, then I may not have to work tomorrow. I know that it is terrible to want a day off of work, but when there is a possible 1-3 inches of snow forecasted I believe that everyone should have the day off! This really makes me wonder about global warming. I know that supposedly the earth's atmosphere is in critical shape and that the polar ice caps are melting and all, but if things were so bad off I really do not know that half of our country would be experiencing this "Colossal Winter Storm", (Fox News, 2011). According to Fox News this is the worst winter storm in decades, covering from Chicago to New York. My cousins in Tulsa, OK posted pictures on facebook.com of all the snow that they have had, something like 14 inches, it is just incredible. Maybe I will make a trip up there this weekend! :) It just really makes me wonder about global warming and how much of it is truth and how much is bogus. Anyways, I hope that you all enjoy this winter weather! Stay warm and dry, and be safe! God Bless us, everyone.

januarytwentyfirst

Yesterday was a pretty great day, I got my car back from the shop. It had been leaking oil, and so I had not been able to drive it for a couple of days. The only problem is that my car now smells like cigarrettes and oil--but I am very thankful that it is fixed! I also ate Dowlings Smoke House, which I have not had since freshmen year and I forgot how good it is. I've eaten it when it has been catered at church and stuff, but I haven't eaten at the restaurant in a while...I will definitely be eating there more often now. Then I went to a friends house and we watched Dinner for Schmucks---I do not recommend it. It annoyed me to no end.
This morning is the start to a great day also. While driving to work, the moon was shining and the stars were out. Right now in the Ruston/Choudrant area it is 27 degrees, so it is the perfect cold, crisp morning. I have some Cheerios for breakfast, and I am at work until 2:00pm and then my weekend starts! Hope you all have a fantastic weekend.

Watching the sun rise

It has been a while since I last posted on here, but to get you up to date with my life, I have now graduated from Louisiana Tech University with a degree in Speech Communications. I am currently working at Squire Creek Country Club, in the fitness Center. Recently my work hours changed, and my new schedule is Monday through Friday 5:30 am- 2:00 pm. This isnt a terrible schedule because I have my afternoons off now, which I enjoy. However, waking up at 4:30 every morning is not always that agreeable with my sleep schedule. The past few days here have been gray and dull, until around mid morning when the sun finally squeezes through the gray clouds. Today, it is different. According to weather.com it is twenty three degress outside, and the heat in this building does not seem to be working well, so I have a small space heater right beside me, blowing on me constantly. I am also wearing a coat, inside. As I start to complain about having to wake up this early and open up at work, and begin to think about how cold it is and how I would much rather be in my warm bed, in my warm apartment, asleep, I catch a glimpse of the sunrise. Suddenly, my day is changed. I have been waiting for this time to come, especially since the past few mornings have been so dull. The drive out to work is not that bad, it is actually very peaceful, and I enjoy the commute in the dark. I like the excitement of driving down the interstate with no one else in sight. On clear mornings, like today, I can see the stars and the moon still. It is when I get to work, and am so cold that I begin to complain. Today, as I began to complain though, I caught a glimpse of the sunrise and my attitude changed. The sky is black on one side of the world, yet on the other side there is a light coming over the horizon. It is a faint orange color. I walked back into the office because after all it is twenty three degrees outside, but then the next time I looked at the sunrise, it was a brilliant pink. The outline of the trees, the crisp, cold air, made me almost feel like I was in the mountains. It changes so fast, and now the sky is bright pink with purple and orange clouds. It is amazing. I can only thank God that I am getting to see this splendid display of his creation. What amazes me the most is that the sun comes up every day, and it is this beautiful. Even though it might not always shine here, and the sky might not always be illuminated with brilliant colors, the sun always comes up. It might be hidden by dull, drab clouds and fog, but it is still there. If we look close enough, on those dull days, we just might catch a glimpse. When we least expect it, the sun comes up, shining in all of its splendor and it takes our breath away. All of the cares, problems, and worries are far away. No matter what we are going through, the sun rise reminds us that there is hope. Each day is a new beginning. I can only thank Jesus for that wonderful feeling. The feeling that everything will be just fine.